AKA: BLINDSIDED, PART 2
There are a couple of text shortcuts in the title. Most of us know LOL although I tend to use haha when I send a text. Don't know why I can't seem to embrace LOL. Also, I don't quite understand much more than :) or ;) .... well, actually, I understand them when they are sent to me, but my replies don't extend beyond smiley or winkey. I'm a big hug and kisser. And, it's not just a way to end a note. They are heartfelt. So, to everyone who's following along..... xoxoxoxox
In case translation of the title is required:
GFY = Go F__k Yourself
CTFO = Chill The F__ k Out (thank you Terri from A Fresh Chapter, I Like That, Lots)
Last week, it was mom's scan and just as I let my guard down, believing I was free of all doctor appointments for SIX whole months, the unwanted call. It's no big deal. I'm sure it's not a big deal. Just like I am SURE this pain in my back that seems to be radiating from my lower back and around my pelvic bone and is breaking right through the leftover pain meds.... that's nothing, too.
My relationship issues are challenging at best, damn near impossible to fix on the other end of the spectrum. You know. Those things I still can't share. There are a few other things that have caused a bit of havoc in my life. Right now, as far as I have come in little more than one year (and damn, I have come so far)...... in this moment, it feels as though I obliterated an entire year of progress. Certain things are beginning to feel like deja vu all over again.
This is all stuff for another day. The details of the nonsense that knocked me down in the past 12 hours..... For now, it's all about a greeting card..... Because, I am just so done. And this card captures the sentiment just perfectly. In other words, I don't want a F____ing word of encouragement. I want to wallow in my own disgust and irritation if that's okay with everyone. Because sometimes, ya just gotta stop believing in that zen crap. Today is one of those days. OKAY???