It's part of the new me. It's chemobrain fallout and for those of you who want to continue to fight with me about the nuances of what happens in my brain, I have NO problem going toe to toe. One year ago, I was a ball of speculation. Today, I'm armed with information. I'm pretty sure I can locate studies pointing to what happened in different areas of my brain and how the pathways may be severed (for lack of a better, more medically acceptable word-OR a word that I dropped thanks to one of those aforementioned nuances). I think I can tell you what drugs are believed to have caused which problem. Thing is.... there are a number of issues and it seems EACH of those three drugs in that chemo cocktail caused a different issue. That's my unscientific "observational" study on a single subject. Me.
Today, WHO cares? And why..... within those nearly nine THOUSAND emails (seriously, is that the plural version?), is the intriguing subject line: Chemobrain selected as one of the best blogs of 2012. I was in the midst of trying to help my South African "emotional breast cancer activist" friend, Kwanele hunt down some information. It was hours before I saw that email. I opened it, half expecting to find a message inviting me to join some sort of blog network. Except, I wasn't invited to join anything. The editors of Healthline.com assembled a list of the Best Breast Cancer Blogs of 2012. There are 23 blogs on the list. TWENTY-THREE and this blog is one that was selected??!?!
How can I not share my excitement here? There are thousands of blogs about breast cancer in the blogosphere. To say I am honored, humbled, stunned, speechless, grateful, still shaking my head in disbelief (and did I mention I was stunned) isn't an understatement. It's beneath several understatements. It's a joke, right? Definitely. Still, I clicked the link and this is what I saw:
23 Best Breast Cancer Blogs of 2012
I began clicking through the blogs and I recognize a number of them. Some are new. Some are on the roster on this blog. Still others are blogs I have read and THOUGHT I put on the roster. I will fix that (as soon as I clean the mess on the floor in my office so I don't have to keep answering questions every damn day about what I'm doing).
Then, I get to this page:
I'm not sure who they are talking about but I am determined to live up to these words. Especially the part about having my life under control!
Thank you, Healthline and especially to the editors who decided this blog was worthy of such wonderful recognition. And kudos to all of those with whom I share this honor. Not playing favorites AT ALL, but some of these bloggers have become real, true friends and part of my network of support.
Can you indulge me a moment? Not being all cheesy here but I am absolutely overwhelmed to have my name mentioned with the likes of Ann, Catherine, Kathi, Katie, Lani and Nancy. Besides admiring their work, in one short year, they have become my friends.
And a very special shout out to Angelo Merendino whose photographic blog of his life with his beautiful Jen rounds out this list.
I'm star-struck. How did I wind up in this circle? Thank you, again to the folks at Healthline. Speechless. Still shaking my head in disbelief.
And a HUGE thanks to the Visible Ink team at MSKCC. I doubt I would have had the courage to hit the publish button without their encouragement. A piece of this belongs to Judith, who founded the program and Anna who mentored me. Starting to sound like a freakin' Pulitzer Prize or something. I'll shut up now.